Surviving Motherhood.

What a title, huh? I know it 's a little lame but I just want to share my experience here. I have a daughter who's about to celebrate her first birthday next month. Being a mother is incredible for me. I am far better person in every single way. Despite all the crying, the messiness she made, giggles coming out from her mouth when I do some stupid stuff just to get her attention, yada, yada, yada... I can't describe in words the experience of a lifetime being a mother. Yup, I do get tensed sometimes  when things don't go my way or even just by her disobedience about oh so many things! What can I say, I'm still trying to be a mom!

There is no book in this world that could really guide you or me to be the best mother for our children. I, myself is still learning about her every single second. It is weird but it is fun and exciting to feel that way. I love my daughter very much. I am so thankful and contented that I have supports from all my family members. I can never survive without them.

Dear Chempaka Naura,

I am sorry if there were times I was being foolish by not understanding your needs,
If there were times I was being harsh on you,
If there were times I didn't listen to you,
If there were times I was losing my emotions completely for things you did unintentionally,
Mama is still trying to get to know you,
Trying to get to know all about you,
Forgive me if I ever hurt you in any ways,
For you should know, I'm trying and always trying,
To be a mother to you, a friend to you, a shoulder to cry on and your confidante,
I will always strive to be the best mother you could ever imagine,
Please allow me to do so, always,
I love you so much, always.

Love,

Mama.

Our first airplane ride together to Langkawi Island. First holiday for you. You did great!

Our first Mother's Day celebration together. You were just 6 months old!

We were on our way to Singapore. Woo Hoo!

Look at the smile!

I really love this one! We both smiled and

so sweet together! I love you so much!