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Thursday, 18 October 2012

Terrible Twos.

I often ask myself this question, is there such phase as Terrible Twos??? A lot of times, I don't have the answer. This is simply because I have not reached there yet! Things have changed tremendously lately and I began to realise that soon I am entering the TT (Terrible Twos) phase with Chempaka Naura.

I read a lot of materials about dealing with children. I knew I had to start some where because I am an impatient adult-cum-mother. It is funny though that I am in control of my emotions when dealing with strangers but not when dealing with certain of my family members and my daughter is no exception. I wanted to know and perhaps learn and practise the best possible method when come the day dealing with temper and tantrums from my 2 year old daughter. However, I feel that I failed miserably when dealing anything with her.

Anyone living with toddlers knows how quickly they can change. One minute all is bliss, full of happiness and laughter then... BAAAMMM! They suddenly turn into a monster erupting from a volcano bursting with lava of anger and testing your patience to the very limit.

Usually, I am pretty great handling her crankiness in public but unfortunately, at home I can easily turn into a devilish cruel mother who will shout and scream to her face. I tried to be more patient when she's being horribly unreasonable with her actions at home, but a lot of times I'll be annoyed and bursting with anger. Sometimes, when I just couldn't take it anymore I'll just let it all out by crying endlessly. I guess that's just the 'phase', right? I hope I can go through it with Chempaka Naura and also with my new baby soon.

I have print-outs sticking on my bedroom walls to remind me on how to talk to my children, how to be more patient when they're driving me crazy, how to do oh so many things...I have to have all that reminders because I want to be a good  mother to them. I don't want to be too soft, or too hard to my children. I want to help them all the time but I want them to be independent at the same time. I want them to excel in their studies but I don't want to be a crazy Mom who pushes her children too much to get excellent grades. There are so many things I want and don't want to do to my children and I just don't know how to do or even where to start. Am I bad mother? Or even worse, am I foolish mother? 

I just hope I can be more patient and calmer when handling my daughter. I don't want her to hate me, but I want her to love me. Terrible Twos suck big time but they are also great milestones of great imagination and exploration for both children and parents. It may be some of the toughest years (don't make me start with teenage years, I'll write about it when the day arrives! Haha!) but InsyaAllah we'll get through it somehow.

Praying so hard I'll be better every day. So help me God!

I had to blog about this because I just had a terrible two situation with my darling Chempaka Naura.

I am so sorry that I shouted at you when kept on kicking me.
I am truly sorry for telling you that I'm leaving you if you don't go to bed for your nap time.
I am sorry for being mean to you by leaving you in the room and locked up myself in the loo for a few minutes.
I am sorry for not letting you be near me when I'm in rage.
I am sorry for everything and please accept my humble apology.
I am still trying to get to know and understand you better.
I hope you feel the same way too.
However, with all those silly actions I did, I just want you to know that I love you so very much.
I just want you to know that I will always love you so much, no matter what!
Mama loves you so much Chempaka Naura.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Can't you just be this adorable all the time???
I love you so muchos Chempaka Naura.
 
 
 


Saturday, 13 October 2012

CN@TC, Kuantan 2012

Oh how I miss Kuantan! Yeah I know I can see some raised eyebrows among my readers here. Why Kuantan??? Haha! I have this love-hate relationship with Kuantan. Kuantan was my first night stop destination when I started my solo flying back in 2004. Also, during this particular time a guy was trying to impress me (he didn't, mind you!). Hahaha! With this guy, I got to know some of the best places to eat seafood in Kuantan and one of them is called Pak Su's Seafood. I always love the beach in Telok Cempedak, they're just far cleaner than PD or some other beaches in Malaysia. Well, to cut things short, I just enjoy Kuantan.
 
My loved ones and I decided to drive up to Kuantan for a short getaway before I go into labour. Well, we did the same thing on my previous pregnancy but it was just in Melia Hotel,KL. So, this time we wanted to go some where a little further than KL. It was either Malacca or Kuantan. In the end we agreed on Kuantan as I was also craving for 'keropok lekor'. It's easier to get it while in Kuantan than Malacca, I guess! And yes, I succeeded in search of the 'keropok lekor' and it was very up to my liking. Alhamdulillah, no drooling for my baby! Just kidding!
 
It was just 3 days and 2 nights stay in Hyatt Kuantan. We spent a lot of our time lazing around at the pool area. Chempaka Naura loves being in the water. We brought her to the beach to let her experience the beach and the waves but I guess she was too afraid of the gushing waves hitting her feet. She prefers the pool than the sea.
 
Weather was lovely. It wasn't too hot and it didn't rain either. It was cloudy and shady. So, we didn't really get sunburned. Good for Chempaka Naura to spent some time in the pool. It helped a lot on her eczema-prone skin. She was as happy as a clam.
 
Kuantan isn't that bad! We just didn't have much time to explore all around. Perhaps when the kids are bigger, we'll try to make another trip there and explore other locations like the National Park or Chini Lake. 
 
Some photos to share our days in Kuantan. Enjoy!
 
 
 
 
 
 
Silly happy faces.
 
 
Food oh food!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Images of the incredibly beautiful Hyatt, Kuantan.
 
 
 
 
 
Swimming at the pool.
 
 
 
 
 
Chempaka Naura @ Telok Chempedak.
 
Getting leg massage after swimming!
 
 
Till we meet again Kuantan!


Hi 5 Holiday Live in KL

Hi everyone! 5 in the air,let's do it together. Hi 5! Yup, the Hi 5 group from Australia came to KL for a 3-day live show at KLCC and we went and had lots of fun! Yee haa!
 
Shafiz was supposed to come along but unfortunately, he had to go to work on that day. Duty calls. So, Chempaka Naura, myself and my helper, Lena went to the show and it was awesome! I had to bring someone along as I'm heavily pregnant at 30 weeks. And my little girl is hyperactive! The children had more fun than I did. Chempaka Naura was no exception as well. This would be her first concert ever in her life!
 
It was kind of funny how we actually get into this Hi 5 fever, as most of you are aware of our obsession with Sesame Street from my earlier posts. Well, I wanted my daughter to have better interaction with live human beings rather than just puppets or cartoons. So, I bought her first Hi 5 DVD and let her try to watch it. She was jumping up and down, trying to sing along every word and voila! She enjoyed it so much and I am glad!
 
We were so lucky to witness the live show and I must say that, my little miss enjoyed every moment she was there. She was a bit scared at first though, because of the dark room and all but somehow managed to adapt to it and had a time of her life (I know I am pretty exaggerating here! Haha!)
 
Some photos for your view. I had to say that these guys are talented and are really good at what they are doing! Well done and good job to Tim, Casey, Lauren, Dayen and Stevie!
 
In the car with Kak Lena.
 
One shot with Mama before going in to the concert hall.
 
 
Posing at the Hi 5 banner as well as on the seat before the show started.
 
The stage.
 
Smile!
 
 
And together, we're Hi 5! YEAHHHHH!!!!
 
 
We would love to go for another Hi 5 concert again if there's any in future. Can't wait!