I went through a rough and tough period of my life those couple of months. Not only that, it affected me so much that it almost ruined my marriage. Thank God that I am stronger than before and I love my husband and children even more now. I believe that it was just a phase in my life and lesson I've to learn that life or marriage aren't always rainbows and butterflies.
Something sparked my sister in law and she burst into anger and we had a huge argument. After all, I know I am not her dream picture perfect sister in law. I had to defend myself and answered her. That clearly angered her and unfortunately she behaved in an extremely imprudent manner. Pity my Mom in law had to witness that. From that moment, I knew I had to move out in order to make things better at least, for my family.
I know she has her own side of story and honestly, I truly don't care. Alhamdullillah that we managed to buy a small shelter for our family and InsyaAllah we'll move in by next year. It was a tough and huge decision but we had to.
Chempaka Naura is attending a play school now. FINALLY!!! She loves it and I love it too. It is nearby and I love the environment. I love the Principal and teacher. Best of all, she enjoys it there. And that is the most important part. We tried 2 play schools before sending her to Miss Gurdeep's, but I guess she didn't fit in those two. And I guess I didn't really like it there too.
Melur Maira is back to Gymboree and she's totally the opposite of her older sister. She's more observant and Chempaka Naura is hyperactive. I am trying to get use to it. Chempaka is more like me, jumping around like monkey and chatty. Melur is more like Shafiz, calm, cool and a little shy. Haha! I am so excited when I see them fighting for the same toy or making each other happy by playing and sharing together. They are so unique and special in their own ways.
I am blessed to have my husband supporting me and loving me for who I am despite the friction between me and his sister. He keeps me going every day. Telling me how beautiful I am despite the pimple attack, telling me I am a smart person even though I don't go to any prominent universities, telling me I am a great Mama to our kids despite me yelling and nagging to them sometimes, that I am a nice wife although I hardly cook at home. And so many more. The list is endless. Thank you my love for allowing me to be part of your life. And I am sorry for any thing that I've said that might hurt your feelings, any thing that I did before that humiliated you and most of all any of my shortcomings that you might not like. You are the most accepting people I've ever met. I love you so much just the way you are.
Being married has made me a tougher person. It taught me how to compromise and accept each other in order to live comfortably and happily. I learned a lot about life, about other people and so much more. I've become more accepting and even calmer than what I was before. I got more 'Hidayah' and Alhamdullillah, I thank Allah for that.
I hope our marriage will last forever and I will never take our love for granted no matter what.
They are the one who always keep me going...
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